I think my post this week is derived from some frustrations I am feeling as a developing teacher. My frustrations come from the feeling that as I develop my skills and gain the tools and knowledge to try and be a successful teacher, I see lots of roadblocks and grey area in front of me. When I say this, I mean that it seems that teachers are fighting battles on many fronts. They have to deal with large numbers in the classroom, many more special needs students in each class, under staffing, underfunding and a general lack of support for change from within the education system. Teachers also face a lack of a family support at home for children, technology that enhances teaching, yet challenges teachers to stay ahead of the cheating curve.
I think I am more terrified and excited to have an opportunity to have my own classroom, because I think I know what it will be like, but then again I have no real life experience to base that on. I hope to be able to instill great ideas, knowledge, work ethic, respect, communication skills, motivation and other aspects to students. I worry that I am setting myself up for failure or disappointment because all of those things I want to accomplish are possible, yet in my experiences over the last few months it seems that the role of the teacher is so vast that it is hard to accomplish lofty and well thought out goals. I am excited about utilizing all of the great ideas and techniques I have learned to organize and initiate learning for students, along with the technology to inspire and motivate children. What I do not look forward to is the overwhelming pull on teachers to be teacher, friend, parent, social worker. I feel that in my first several years in the classroom, I will be to busy and to preoccupied to utilize new and interesting teaching methods, a I will just fall into a routine of being average teacher. I do not want this and am not sure how to avoid this. I guess, that I hope to find a great school system that supports andencourages young teachers. I hope to find a mentor like teacher to utilize their skills and knowledge to help me to adjust and to inspire me to push my limits and the limits of the students. I guess I will see how this all plays out, but I hope myself and my fellow new teachers have the opportunity to force education to change and for students and teachers to a be able to learn and spread knowledge and skills to make this world a better place.